STARTING ..........NOW!

im so bored lately and so tired of work
daaang
other then that same ol shit
laame
happy birthday to my best friend BRAIN
the big 1 8


well im just bored and tired
holla lata

suuuup
so anyway i got my hair done and a new tatt yesturday
feels good i like seeing myself with some difference like my hair and stuff
i love it its got supper dark brown streaks my natural color and some highlights-hawt
then i got that lightening bolt tatt ive always wanted and i loooove it
anywayyyy im bored and shit and i cant believe our summer is so like half over and i was just talking to someone today and they were all how are you enjoying you LAST summer!
i never thought of it like that
its kind of scary to think of it that way
daaaaang
so yea ima head to bed im tanked---as in tired
mmmk holla
muahs

what a life
im so sick of working
but yea i had a sweet convo with wes today and its so refreshing to talk to someone with the same views as you. we are just like in the same mode of thinking right now. i feel like everyone has gotten so like immature or something or just ive grown out of everything that used to be "fun". i just feel like ive tried things and done things and yea they were fun but ive grown out of so much and so many people. i dont want to be stuck in highschool forever like some people are. im done with that part of my life and im happy im moving from it.
i feel like ive lived such a full life like ive done so much to only be 18-ive made so many mistakes but id never take anything i did back. ive learned so much and im just ready to keep going. i dont want to be stuck with the same old things and the same old ways forever. im glad to start a new chapter. i sound emo or something but still.
i guess im just ready for change-something different

i mean i look at the people i normally hang out with and listen to them and think to myself i was never like that-but then i get to thinking an i was. its weird to think how far ive come.
im just needing something new and exciting i guess. i think ima go get like a new hairstyle or something lol-to shake things up a bit
aight well enough of all this ima hit the hay
holla bitches
muahs as always

so i headed down to summerfest for flogging molly with maggie
we were so effing pumped
we got sweet ass seats and saw a kick ass opening bad somethin somethin big damm band or whatever they were good
so FM rocked and afterwards me and maggie went over and MET the bass player! and got pics with him and i got maggies brochure signed and he signed my chest *sigh* it was a magical night
then after that we went over to the marcus amphatheater and snuck in to see nickelback which was also pretty good i guess
so yea good times

other then that im exhausted
holla back
woot

so totally hit up summerfest for the first time ever the other day
yea i guess it was aight lol
i missed the bmx demo tho-thanx brain you dousche
gosh
but yea not talking to shitface really anymore
i like live at traes house now
well there and work
in the past 2 days i worked 23 hours not by choice
today 2 fucktards decided not to show up for work so my nice lil 4 hour shift got roped into a 13 hour one and i had to clean the whole kitchen myself-me=mucho pissed offness
i was so mad-when i see those fucks next ima slap a bitch
but yea-4th of july woot itll be a good time i hope i only work during the day and i should/will be or im walking out done with work by 2 so i have the night to fuck around-then i have wed and thurs off thank god im going to see floggin molly which should be fuckin amaaaazing and crazy. so i guess my week should get better
today sucked tho with work and i came home and my lizard that i had since like elemenery school died. sad day in my life but whatev sometimes they just gotta go i guess
RIP spike

so yea im tired as hell so holla bitches

ok so the whole point of me driving down there was to talk
so i drove down there and um it was like i was used for bike transportation
like i went biking too but thats like all that went on
im pissed
then when we did chat for like 5 effing mins it was only 5 min and he brought up one point and totally was all call me when you get home we'll talk bout it some more-ofcoarse he doesnt answer his phone for the next 1 1/2 days. what a fuckin idiot. im so done with all that shit he just ruined his chances forever
i was gonna try and look at it a nice way and kinda give him another chance and all but if hes gonna be a dousche for the rest of his life im sure it wouldnt be hard to pass right by that.
gosh-sometimes i really question why i ever stayed friends with him at all
whatev

holla

me=pissed
i hate boys and the stupid shit they say just to sound cool
fuck that

had a shitty day at work and i have too many mosquito bites to even count
bitches
i hate squitos

but yea im pretty burned out
so ima head to bed
holla at ur girl laterrr

peace

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is, easiest when I am around you.

So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry
A year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

so i slept like all day today other then when i worked it was nuts
im so bored tho w/e for once im not out on the town so i guess thats alright
so i work like everyday its ridonculous
this weekend i think ima try and go down to chi-town and work some things out
cuz i came to the conclusion that im just gonna be friends with him cuz a) im tired of all the lies and bullshit b) its too much of a hassle and waste of money to drive donw there c) i doubt things will be different from before
so im proud of myself and plus there are plenty of good ones up here that are great people
so im don with all the bullshit drama and it feels great

huge weight lifted offa my shoulders
well believe it or not im still tired ima go chill and watch a flick holla!

so pretty sure last night was crazy and im not even gonna get into it. but me and matt and justin shot some bottle rockets at some vehicles today and that was funny as hell but now im like itchy cuz we had to fuckin jump into the trees. w/e jon liked it cuz we shot 'em at him lol. yea but im tired as hell and am in UBER need of sleep.

i lovED him
not anymore
now he loves me
but i love someone else
so this is the crossroad we meet at
now what...

so yea i talked to david and i guess we are gonna talk things through and see whats going on or whatever yeeeaaa
went to schneids tonight and its like 3 in the am and i just got home im nuts. we all went to webbs and that was fun everyone crazy and hungry. i like it. so i am gonna hit the hay im tired as fcuk so holla at yall laterrrrr
peace out homeslices

ugh so today was a stressful day and no one i wanna talk to is answering their phone so i have to vent via LJ. p a t h e t i c much. yea riiiight...so anyway. i hate boys well its a love hate type thing. lately people are being soo stupid -if you want me ask me if your serious then its gotta be all or nothing im not doing this half way bullshit that has gotten me fucked over so many times-im sure you know who you are too you dumb fucking slut that never does what he says and fucks with my emotions all the time...fyi stop calling me if your not serious stop stringin me along for the fuckin third time in a row and if you hurt me again ill be pissed at you and so will my possy so fuck off. gosh- (me steaming mad) you never answer your phone when i wanna bitch at you -its like you have some effing 6th sense you bitch ha. but seriously no more lies no more shit just tell me whats going on for serious cuz ill either drop you or pick you back up and its looking like im droppin you for good sooon cuz your a ho and a liar and a cheat and once a cheater always a cheater so they say...and im they. dont play nice to me on the phone and when your buddies are around act tough and talk down to me-im not the same person i was last time and i wont be taking your shit much longer. ok phew thats out

so yea these weird guys from chicago were hittting on me and sara today it was soo funny and we visited shaun to check on him after his motocross crash poor baby go to the effing doctors already gosh-you dont need to act tough for us we know your a baby lol. but yea so anywho im waiting for my mom to freakin go to bed so i can relax and watch a movie and smoke or something gosh my life is stressful.

so i cleared the day on saturday in hopes of fixing shit with people that have been bitchiing im never around and stuff but they back out like pussys and act stupid and wont even come see me or snything. newsflash dont call me a bitch for "never" calling you when its not my fault you dont answer your phone and dont call me a bitch for not hanging out with you when you wont make an equal effort for this. its not always gonna be me giving 200% when rightfully half should be yours. somedays i think i strongly dislike you perhaps loath you entirely, idk yet. ok well im done for the night ima curl up on the couch watch tristan and isolde drink ovaltine till i puke and cry. ok ttyl muahs holla

ok so i havent written on here for like a hundred years. crazy i know. well i graduated thank efffing god, its about time i atleast try to get outta this shithole of a town and lifestyle. so ive been influenced for like a week straight-slept over at a couple guys houses for parties with tim-found myself in tylers van one night and shit like that. well i guess the least i can say is that im enjoying the outta school summer life, other then working. so into bmx now-i went to the baco jam in warren and like got on camera for being in my bikini and some girl on interbmx totally talked to me and said she has a pic of me-omg. w/e i looked hot....ish? yea fo sho.so im tired of fuckin tard ass kids around here-people should learn to grow up or shut up. thats my theory. so ive been hanging at traes for bon fires like forever and those are fun-hes a lil fickle but w/e. and i went to the fire house to listen to SUVs practice and um guess what they are amazing and ill bang them all lol jk but yea they rock my socks right off.
i went with tim to get his first tatt-it was amazing, him and i are gonna go togethor to get our tongues pierced too idk when but hopefully soon i just wanna rebl it out. ive been feeling very punky lately idk something like that
so tim got into a huuuge blown outta the pic argument/fight wit bonnet cuz i guess he slapped my ass infront of him and cocked off to tim and he blew up and like wanted to strangle him-w/e. but yea just got my car back but the rentals wont lemme drive anywhere till i pay like 600 dollas-bitched. looks like im taking up prostitution again...d a m n. so im up to like 4 tatts now and im plannin on gettin another one by end of summer. i loves them. but yea well ima make like a fetus and head out holla at yall later
holla

please just dont play with me
my paper heart will bleed

if i die before i wake
atleast in heaven i can skate
cuz right here on earth i cant do jack
without the man up on my back

ok so scenario

i kinda like a guy
guy likes me back
guy is stuck in middle school cuz all we ever do is watch movies like a foot away from each other and calls me a slut and punches me-yea still in that faze...o and makes fun of one of my outfits that is def trendy...and hes almost too crazy(coming from me that means a lot) and all his friends know that i said i may have liked him-so thats blown up

so i kinda sorta like one of his good friends
hes a lil cuter
hes a lil smarter
hes a lil quieter
hes got lil better hair-get my fingers through it
lil better bod i think
doesnt punch me or call me a slut
can actually talk to...

so which one then...hmmm let me think

time to make a love connection

i talked to the sexiest man alive today
aka philipp seesar
what a german stud
he called me from deutschlan and it was like 11pm by him i thought it was cute that i was prolly the last one he heard before he went to bed...hes so hilarious
but yea id rail that bitch lol (a trademark sayin of his)
but i hope he comes to visit this summer
luvs him
holla

i love throwing pizza at jackass drivers who dont let me pass them
HAH
take that pig

but other then that im good for now lol
muahs

i talked to D-unit online last night
and is was one of the weirdest things ever
i havent talked to him in such a long time it was like awkward
well atleast i know now that im over that whole thing
and if anything we can be friends
and i think thats is
i dont think things would go back anyways

GOT A JOB

APPLEBEES COOK

gotta bring home the bacon for the husband and kids

ok for once im really trying
like not to the point of desperation but the little teasing type of trying
this better effing work eventually
dang

ok this is your assignment-should you choose to accept:
go rent ALmost Famous and watch it
i watched that movie with em dawg and her mom tonight and it was so uber good i loved it
so everyone needs to go watch it cuz i want to be penny lane aka lady goodman
omg it was a good movie tho

ok besides that im doing indoor soccer now in the ghetto and its so fun. i kinda sucked for the first half cuz id never played indoor in my life but w/e everyone there is fun and we have a good time and you get to kick the crap outta people sometimes and thats always fun-sept some people taht were there were retarded and stupid and um i hate you.
but yea after that em and i went to webbs and got pancakes which were o so delicious and guess who effing walks in...omg was that awkward
but i had to be nice w/e

ok and omg im so sad ben called me from japan today while i was playing soccer and i miss him so much and im sad/mad i missed his call he only gets like a breadk on sundays and i missed it i am so mad-miss him tons tho muah

ok holla at me later i gotta get a wink of sleep yet